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21 December 2009 @ 10:54 am

Yay!!!

My LEA decided that due to the snow closure days earlier in the year we - the only county in the UK - have to work right up til 22nd December. Now, this is unheard of in Primary Education and staff and parents were not best pleased.

BUT... Devine intervention!

Woke up this morning to the phone ringing at 630am with a message that school was shut today and to report in for advice for tomorrow - looked out of the window and 4 inches of snow!!!

Ha ha ha how cool is that??!!

Have had a fabulous morning wrapping up in warm layers and building a snowman. We walked to the shop and bought sweets, crisps and the customary snow milk and bread ( even though I have plenty in already!! lol). We are now thawing out with hot chocolate and eating junk with
heating on high - its superb!

Hopefully we will have a little more tomorrow and then we can do it all over again and then it can go away again for our Christmas hols!

Thank you khama! x

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Current Mood:

jubilant

Current Music: go diego go!

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19 December 2009 @ 08:52 pm

chilled chilled momma

Have a weekend with just myself and the kids and OMG its pure blisssssssssss We stayed in bed until 10am, watching tv and playing online games and singing Christmas iTunes songs.

Then we went downstairs and made glittery, jewelled Christmas cards and baked gingerbread (with caster as we had no muscavado left!).

Then we watched Santa Buddies.

Then we put coats on over our PJ's and walked round the block to look at the Christmas lights and came home to home made pizza.

The children are tucked up fast asleep and I am just set to have a glass of vino and a soak in the tub before an early night.

Am chilled to perfection and have another day ahead :o)

oh, and, the red hair lol
I loves it see!!
xx

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Current Mood:

relaxed

Current Music: i got a feelin...

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17 December 2009 @ 02:36 pm

Feeeeeling fffffffffestive!!!!

OMG!!!! Just back from the hairdresser. Made a spur of the moment decision and now instead of a mid brown mid length bob I now have a short shiny Christmassy RED bob!! Base colour plum red with scatterings of bright red on top. It is bloody FAB-U - LOUS!!! I LOVE IT!!! No-one has seen me yet so hopefully I dont look a tit lol! I have just done my nails so now have matching shiny hair and fingers ready for wearing with my little black dress and black stockings and kitten heel mules this evening. I'm feeling Christmassy big time!!

Current Location: bedroom

Current Mood:

mischievous

Current Music: santa baby

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12 December 2009 @ 10:26 pm

End of the road.

Busy week with school nativities. 3hrs of footie this morning.
Rugby plus rugby Christmas party tomorrow.

Not feeling especially festive despite trying hard for the children.
Things with M at all time low and after what he has said to me this evening I really
do think it is end of the road.

No going back.

Mental health issues aside, for better or worse and all that malarky considered, NO ONE tells me that they are using all their strength to wish that I die on the operating table when I have my hysterectomy next month.

Beyond unforgivable.

This man was the love of my life. My saviour when all else had failed me. My handsome prince. My soulmate. My support. My lifeline. My friend. My lover. The father of my children.

How could he ever say that to me when he knows I am petrified - oh and in front of the children!!!

I am not getting upset.
I AM NOT GETTING UPSET.
I AM NOT GETTING UPSET.
I AM NOT GETTING UPSET.

Its sure as hell not easy though.

Right. Dry eyes and off to bed.
Its another difficult day tomorrow.

Onward and upward - this too will pass!

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crushed

Current Music: total silence

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04 December 2009 @ 11:40 am

Lou Lou Giggs

please welcome our beautiful baby boy -

Lou Lou Giggs
( commonly known as Kitty)

he lives indoors, sleeps on the sofa and LOVES to watch the soaps and I'm a Celebrity!!
( we think he's a Gino fan!!)

In short HE'S FAB!!!

:o)

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03 December 2009 @ 12:26 pm

Hughes Syndrome

I have just been told that i have Hughes Syndrome or Sticky Blood Syndrome.

Its not great apparently.

I have to have 5 warfrin injections into my tummy after my hysterectomy and then have to take warfrin tablets for as long as I take HRT afterwards with 3 monthly reviews.

I have huge risk of heart attack or stroke or pulmonary embolism.

Looks like I'd better take better care of myself and get my fat ass on Slimming World immedately.

I know its psychosamatic (sp) but I can feel the clots moving round my body!!!!!!!!

FFS! Get a grip woman!!

On a lighter note, pics of our new furry friend Lou Lou to follow :o)

xx

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26 November 2009 @ 02:33 pm

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Phew!

I have been busy today.

Dropped the kids at school then went back for H's 1st class assembly in new school - it was practically the h Show he had so many lines!! lol, bless him, he was awesome.

Then went to do weekly shop and was a bit cafuffled by all the offers in Asda - i am a tesco's kinda gal usually - but omg asda soft cheese stuffed bell peppers and artichoke antipasti!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am soooooo won over!

Have picked several tonne of shallots, garlic and chillies and have baked a banana loaf.

All of next weeks planning and prep is done for school - Head teacher back in after illness yesterday and was a complete fucking cow bitch again so i have got to keep my wits about me. Evil bloody geriatric- RETIRE AND GET A LIFE!!!!!

*exhale and breathe*

I have just photographed a load of clothes etc for listing on ebay - I didnt do any last week and am now £100 down on the target of £1400 by end of January for the seasonnal pitch. Am on a mission to raise £500 before Christmas - Prace yow bets!!!

We trimmed up last weekend - very early I know but the weather and work were just getting me down and I decided pretty, cosy lights everywhere were the answer. I am just about done and have tumps of packaging to clear away before collecting the children at 3pm.

M's new meds are settling in a little. he has been having problems this week with his boss - he told him about his health problems last Friday on a trip to That London (he returned with Krispy Kreme doughnuts :o)) and has since been subjected to the most ferrocious personnal verbal abuse about being a "fruit cake". Not ideal!

The kids are fab! The end of term is within sight and i am on a mission to keep my spirits high.
Am off to quiz night at the local tomorrow eve with the girls - free pud with every pre booked meal and an aged rambler who will drool over me and buy my drinks all evening lmao!!

Have had good news of 2 friends - Chris is well on the mend after his heart attacks and is learning to slow the pace of his life down without resorting to wearing pullovers and argyle socks and Vanessa has had the all clear on her amnio results and can now enjoy the last 3 months of her pregnancy without fears of hydrocephalis (sp?) - the amazing power of positive thinking :o)

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20 November 2009 @ 01:31 pm

someone please kick me!!!

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaGGGGGggggggGHHHHHHhhhh!!!!!!!****%%$$£!!!!!!

I need a bloody big kick up the ass!!

I'm afraid to admit that I have allowed myself to get stuck in the dulldrums this week.

I have returned to work and its not great but hey ho the bills wont pay themselves.
M is having problems with his medication and is very up and down. He had an emergency session yesterday and has new meds so we will see how he gets on with them.
Current meds have shrunk his libido greatly so I am feeling the effects of limited play - well, no play actually!
I am still not sleeping so am tired and cranky.
Money is tight.
Christmas is coming.
And the goose is getting fat!!

I am trying to hang on to the fact that there are people a lot worse off than us but I am struggling to do much other than merely function.

I think we are going to have a nice family w/e and get all the Christmas decs from the garage and make a start on trimming up - I know its not yet the customary 1st December but what the hell hey? Other people have theirs up and we can do what we want with the decor of our own home!
Hopefully some cosy twinkly lights will gee us up a little.

Football Saturday am and rugby Sunday am so busy sporting w/e again along with the Wales Autumn International.

I have eBay listings to complete in order to pay this months van payment and I also have my next weeks school planning to complete but I just want to tap away here or go to bed.

COME ON WOMAN!!!!!! PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!

All virtual erse kicks gratefully accepted!

x

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Current Music: kinks

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15 November 2009 @ 03:58 pm

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So, tomorrow is "Back to work" day.

If you notice there is no cheering after saying it!

I am sooooo not looking forward to going back - really I shouldn't be going back. I have to though else I will be on half pay for the hysterctomy recovery and we can't be affording that at the moment.

My planning is done to perfection. My planning file is immaculate. My resources are ready and looking lovely (if I do say so myself!). Packed lunches, done. Clothes, done. Everything I can think of is done and looking the bollocks but I am still certain SHE will find something and pull me up over it - maybe I had better polish my pen or trim my fringe in case they are not good enough!

Fucking Bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*exhale*

Had a lovely w/e.
Went to Gourmet Burger Kitchen for lunch - oreo milkshake mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :o)
Then kids friends came over for an X Factor party - pizza, coke (!), home made cakes & cookies. Rugby this morning - my gorgeous boy was Captain and we won 7-4 -whoop whoop!
M and H have now gone to watch Newport County football and me and F are chilling ( if scrutinising my school kit = chilling lol).

My radiators are covered in kits and skins - I remember way back when, when "skins" meant something TOTALLY different!!

Early nights for the children, nice soak in the bath for me then a long slow massage and some gin ( and hopefully some hair pulling and spanking!) in order for me to be calm and sleep well in readiness for mustering up the strength to walk into work in the morning.

Am very aware of being calm and non stressed at the mo due to news of a dear friend suffering a heart attack and being really rather poorly. He is about 6 mths older than me and by far fitter - its been an eye opener to us all. I havent had a ciggie since I heard the news!

GET WELL SOON BIG BRO - LOVE YOU XXX

Strength is needed tomorrow starting at 8am - please keep me in your thoughts and send me positive vibes to help me through my day

Love to all
xx

Current Location: family room

Current Mood:

nervous

Current Music: gigglebits theme tune & Ffi's scribbling felt pens!

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09 November 2009 @ 12:04 pm

Freaky goings on

Strange, strange events.

Went to PTA fundraiser on Friday night with hubby and 8 friends - 2nd time I had been to see the lady as part of school fundraisers. Wasn't nervous, knew what to expect and , hey, she always nabs someone else anyway!

I am interested in these kind of things but am not overly open - I am a believer but am questioning rather than passive.

She came to my husband and myself and proceeded to tell us that our grandfathers were with her and gave us some startlingly personnal information!

She noted my new glasses and said how I have taken a while to get to like them, She described my grandfather in exact detail and mentioned a birthday - my gran, his wife, was 90 yesterday, she metioned red carnations ( mum always buys gran cream ones but when we visited for the birthday tea yesterday mum had bought bright, bright red to mark a special day), she danced a Morcombe and Wise dance which Mark does with the kids as his grandad had done for him as a child, she ubbed her tummy and said we had recently had big news regarding a life changing lower abdomen op and finally she told us that with the grampas was a "beautiful little boy that never made it to this world".

I had miscarried 5 years ago to the day.

We had never thought about whether this little one would have been a girl or a boy - it was too painful to think of our loss as a real person.

To hear this news after so many detailled, accurate snips of information totally knocked us for six. Stupidly I wailed uncontrolably and felt a total tit afterwards!

I will not be going to the next PTA clairvoyant evening. it has really affected me - maybe I shouldnt have gone when I was already under parr.

Another thing that I learned on Friday evening was what bloody fantastic, supportive friends I have. The girls have practically drawn up a rota of who will help when I am recovering from the hysterectomy - who will help with grocery shopping, who will do casseroles, who will drive me to appointments if Mark cant make it etc etc etc

Yup, you got it - that made me cry too!

little feet are happy things :-)

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06 November 2009 @ 05:33 pm

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Ok, so I have snapped out of it now!!

Had a productive afternoon after my whinge...

Have got us booked in to the new jamie Oliver restaurant which is currently preparing to open in the new Saint Davids 2 shopping centre in Cardiff. We are going for a meal - before the restaurant officially opens - as a kind of staff training exercise - totally free!!

Its not what you kinow its who you know but hell, I;m not complaining!!
All we have to do is turn up, order, eat and leave feedback on the service and how it could be improved.

Mr Oliver will be there too.

(Its going to be part of a day off from Slimming World obviously!)

Am off to a clairvoyant evening with the girls at 7pm - she was awesome when we saw her in May so looking forward to having a bloody good night.

Good weekend all xx

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06 November 2009 @ 12:28 pm

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I am not having such a good day today.

Went to the hospital yesterday for my gynae appointment and my consultant has finally agreed that a hysterectomy is now my only option and that this will take place within the next 2-3 months.

Whilst this is what I have been aiming for for the past 3 years I am very scared now that it is a reality! I am worried how we will cope for the week that I am in hospital and for the 6 weeks afterwards when I will be unable to lift the kids and drive and generally do all the daily chores that come my way.

I know that it has to be done and that long term life will improve but I really am worried.

I am starting Slimming World thoroughly on Monday and aim to lose a stone and a half before the op to aid recovery. i am also going to fill fill fill the freezer with meals so we are ready.

I made the mistake of going into Cardiff to do some retail therapy to pick me up a little but found that my body wouldnt fit into anything that I liked so have ended up feeling worse than before i went and have now come home, locked the door and shut the curtains.

I will have to return to work the week after next as I will need to keep all my sick leave for when I need it in the New Year. This is a daunting thought! I posted a letter to my H/T today asking her to put in writing the problems she has with me and know that the shit is going to hit the fan big time and basically I want to curl into a hole with some chocolate and not come out til next Summer!

Oh well, time to pull myself together!

Any positive vibes sent in my general direction will be gratefully accepted.

Kisses xx

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05 November 2009 @ 11:20 am

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I must update more often.

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Current Mood:

creative

Current Music: na na na na - this morning theme tune

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03 November 2009 @ 11:56 am

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My baby Goth girl

It has been a verrry long time since my last post and I aim for this length of time between posts not to happen again - its not good enough!

I am currently off work. I am suffering badly with stress and nerves. Not ideal. A whole load of unpleasantness going off at work and my union is dealing with it while I re-build my confidence.

I am spending a lot of time baking. This morning I have made a chocolate and vanilla loaf cake, a banana bread and a bean pie. My home smells delicious! I am finding the whole making, baking and cleaning up process very calming, very purposeful and we have some lovely goodies as an end product. The slimming world regime has, however, gone straight out of the window! I can't cope with stressing about how we eat as well as everything else thats going on - have subsequently gained half a stone since May. Again, not ideal but hey ho, there are more important things to worry about.

Am enjoying the opprtunity to have more family time. Have packed up the van in dark and windy Devon until the new season in March and are spending our weekends standing and shouting in muddy fields!

H is continuing with his football training every Thursday evening and has a game every Saturday morning. He has now also started rugby training on a Wednesday evening and has a game every Sunday morning. So, we continue getting plenty of good quality fresh air even though we are not out and about with the van. I have a constant supply of skins and kits on the radiators drying!

My Man of the Match

We are all looking forward to Christmas and whilst not putting pressure on ourselves we feel it will be the best for a year or so. M has recently been diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder and is into his 2nd month of therapy and meds. Life for us all is much, much happier as a result. Happy daddy makes for happy mummy and kids which has got to make for super duper festivities!

I have a gynae appointment on Thursday and after over 2 years of trying out many different procedures, pills, gadgets and other parafanalia I am hoping that my consultant will agree to do a hysterectomy and put an end to my role as a medical guinea pig!

I am totally loving these Fly London boots and hope that someone lovely will provide me with them late December - am undecided whether I should go with the long red or the short petrol - unfortunately both is not an option!

A busy weekend ahead with football/ rugby matches and fireworks and friends and family :o)

Enjoy all, and keep cosy warm xx

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01 September 2009 @ 12:05 pm

back to reality

well its been a blissful 6 weeks of school summer holidays. Have spent all but 5 nights down in North Devon in the van with the kids and it has been truely wonderful. WQeather has been not as good as i would have liked for much of the time but we have all made some fab new friends and are as brown as nuts!

Have gained a few pounds but am back on the old slimming world when i am back at work tommorow with a target of 2 stone by Christmas.

Am currently home alone - M (thats for Mark by the way lol!) and the kids are still in the van, back tomorrow eve. I am having time for preparation for work, me time, boozin with the girls time, retail thereapy time, finding myself a girlie friensd and playing time as well as cleaning the house from top to bottom, assemblimng wardrobes and filling the freezer with home cooked biryanis, baltis n casseroles (all Slimmin World!) ready for work. Busy busy me!

Its all good fun :-) Life is good.

I am however gutted that i was not 1st choice of muse for Lucius lmfao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Short post again - i know, i'm crap - hey ho, life is for enjoyin not tapping away on a keyboard!

All the best for 1st day in college Gem love x

gotta love my hamster me 2day!!! lol

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13 August 2009 @ 05:51 pm

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here is me!

jigsaw style :-)

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13 August 2009 @ 05:32 pm

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wow what a few weeks!!

Been in deepest darkest noth devon inthe van since end of July and home now for 3 days to recharge before we set off on our stowford adventures again!!

All as brown as nuts - well me n kids! M only been down at w/e's when it has typically rained lol

Havent time for full on update but will try to include some snaps which should illustrate our events of recent weeks

xx

ok, here goes...

Tags: holiday snaps

Current Location: garden

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creative

Current Music: the smiths

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07 July 2009 @ 05:28 pm

wwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just back from collecting my final dissertation results.

I had an A14 which is the equivallent of a 1st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets just say i'm happy!

:-)

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05 July 2009 @ 10:27 am

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am again in a state of black and blueness.

Have had 2 fab nights marred only by our son walkin in on us last night and us having to explain that daddy was rubbing mummys back better as it was very sore after digging the garden!

Friday night comprised of shots, a few games of cards followed by a stint on cam and a delicious young man jetting around to help Mark out in the using me department.

I cant even think about it without getting very horny so am unable to fill in details now as I have the children here and need to remain focussed on being a good mummy!

Last night was more frenetic and comprised of various tasks being carried out in the garden, in the kitchen, in the back yard etc and with no visitors - except the unexpected 1 from our son lol!

I am very slow today, still rampantly horny but in a sore, slow, please be gentle with me now way! My head hurts from where myhair has been pulled, my neck aches from where it has been pulled, my ass stings from where it has been whipped, my writs are chaffed from where i have been tied.

I now have to cook a sunday lunch and do general household chores while my head is somewhere very different!

Current Location: kitchen

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: just like heaven, the cure

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06 June 2009 @ 10:30 am

the morning after the night before...

OMG I am delicate this morning!

M and I decided to play cards last night. Then we decided to have shots and do forfits. This always goes in 1 direction! As always when we play cards, have shots and do forfits,within the hour I was half cut, dressed in a few bits of black lacey stuff and on my hands and knees with my head being held back by my hair and a cane whacking against my rear! An hour later again and I was in tears and a total write off and had to be carried to bed and snuggled to sleep.

Its been a while! I'd forgotten how very intense things get and was totally overwhelmed. I did very well though and took quite a beating - apparently I was a defiant girl! Am feeling it this morning though - both my head and my ass are throbbing! Mark has taken the kids swimming so I can have a soak in the bath and just chill a little.

I am out with the girls this eve for meal and few drinks in our local. Then I have been told I have further tasks to perform :-)

Life is so good at the moment x

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